Today's Quote: "We do not grow absolutely, chronologically. We grow sometimes in one dimension, and not in another; unevenly. We grow partially. We are relative. We are mature in one realm, childish in another. The past, present, and future mingle and pull us backward, forward, or fix us in the present. We are made up of layers, cells, constellations." - Anais Nin
I don't have anything of great interest to write about, but I made a New Year's Resolution to write in some capacity everyday. I almost never make resolutions, because seriously, who actually keeps them beyond the month of January. And making New Year's resolutions just seems so contrived. But I've spent the past year or two just kind of moving through life without giving a whole lot of thought to HOW I was living or what I was doing. So I think I'm long overdue for some purposeful living. Hence, I made some resolutions. Yes, I said some. Meaning more than one. I have no idea if I will actually keep these resolutions, but I won't know if I don't try. (I sound like a living, breathing cliche today.)
My first resolution is to write each day. It doesn't have to be a lot. It just has to be something. A paragraph or two in this blog, a few sentences in my journal, or a letter to a friend. This means that much of what I write is going to be crap. That is often the case when one writes even though she has nothing to say. But so be it. Writers write, and I miss being a writer.
My second resolution is not to order pizza from People's Choice anymore. We order from People's Choice because they deliver and there are always coupons in the newspaper. But their pizza sucks. And if I'm going to eat pizza, it might as well be good pizza.
Of course, if I manage to stick to my third resolution, I won't actually be eating a whole lot of pizza. My third resolution is a huge committment, but one that I think is, at this point, necessary. I'm going to start back on the Atkins Diet. Yeah, yeah, I know everyone has an opinion about Atkins. People question whether it's healthy, blah, blah, blah. I can assure you that when I was following Atkins I felt better than ever. I had tons more energy and the weight just fell off. And right now I have so much to lose that I need to do something I know will work. I'm scared, though. Scared to even try because what if I fail? What if I don't have what it takes? What if I feel deprived and become this miserable, bitchy, irritable person that nobody wants to be around? What if I can't even stand myself? Ugh. Better stop writing about it now. At this rate I'll talk myself out of it in no time.
My fourth resolution is to get some exercise. Self-explanatory. Have I mentioned I hate exercise?
My fifth resolution is to keep my desk clean and organized. (Ha!)
And my sixth resolution is to get a manicure every other week. (Tough one, huh?)
Anyone else make any resolutions?